Change, Change, Change....Letting Go

There is so much change in my life all the time! I confess that I don't do change well. I like routine, same-o stuff. I used to have my routine down to an art-my preflood days. Now I kind of drift and attempt to get something done in the morning. Some days I am successful, and some days I am not. I would be better at it, if I was following a routine, but in my current position-seems impossible.

This is definitely another change time in my life. It is a continual lesson in letting go. When I go to the prison ministry, one of the whiteboards in our meeting room has the Serenity Prayer written on it. It is a reminder to them, and to me, to change what you can and accept what you can't!

This reminder was punctuated yesterday as I took a few moments to start a new book my husband just read, Sheet Music. My husband is much better at change than I am and is always looking for ways to improve himself. He has spent our marriage reading marriage books. I have read, let me count, 2. In my defense, I have read lots of Christian living, mothering, wife books, but not so much specific books on marriage and the intimacy of that relationship. I wasn't a few pages into the first chapter when I knew I needed to make a change. The question then arises in my mind how? Will we get through this phase of our life, not just the part where it is just him and I, but the reconstruction of the house during this particular time of our life. The house is so much work, all the time. Did we really want to rebuild it at a time when we should be traveling, seeing the world together, popping in on the kids and grandkids, the fun stuff?

At last....not much choice there. We have to rebuild the house. To do less would be ludicrous, but finding a way to do that, everything else in our life, and grow our relationship.....how do we do that ALL at one time! Looks like I need to let go of some things and make some changes. Only so much time in one day!