Mixed Emotions

So many days are defined by just that-mixed emotions. The last few days we have been getting our laundry room finished, baseboards up and painted, tidbits we need to be wrapping up-and glad to be getting that done. It has been such a busy past year that I have neglected to do some basic things that need to be done, ie...go to the dentist.

Yesterday I made bunches of appointments which means my next few weeks are full! We are also working on the pets. I got up and gave the cat a bath today (He really didn't appreciate that much) and took Pedro to the vet. He was due for his annual shots and so needed to be groomed. We also made a pit stop by the car dealer to drop off the jeep for repairs and pick up the rental which wasn't available yet. That was a bummer. After all of that, detoured by the pet store to pick up pet supplies. We got home, ate lunch, and treated the dogs for fleas. Several hundred dollars later, I was feeling very sad for the me and the dogs. We made a decision not too long ago that we had to find homes for them. We just can't continue to carry this much weight. Three dogs, birds, and a cat are too time intensive and too much money invested. The birds went quickly and now we are looking for homes for the dogs.

I had finally come to terms with the idea that it would be easier to find a home for Maggie than Pedro. She is younger and easier going. He is not outgoing, quite timid around strangers and too old to be adopted out. I can't send him to his death, so hence, Maggie needs a home. The mixed emotion part-Maggie is my dog. She is the only one of the three that is mine. I rescued her as a puppy and cared for her, believing the other two would go with their owners-which didn't happen.

She ran up to me today with those big pleading eyes and was so sweet. I cuddled her, gave her a good tummy rub and fought back tears.